Zuva remhanje
Kune imwe nyanzvi inoyevedza neScandinavia munyori Jan Eckholm "Tutta Karlsson, wokutanga uye oga, Ludwig wegumi nemana nevamwe." Uyo anoiverenga zvichida anoyeuka rudo rworudo rwenyaya yemufudze Ludwig Larsen uye chikwata Tutta Karlsson. Mushure mokutanga kuparidzirwa, apo Tanya Romanenko akachinjwa kuva Tutta Larsen, vateereri vakanga vatove vachionekwa chete maererano neiyo isingazivikanwe, zita risingakanganwiki. Upenyu Tutty - Tanya mune dzimwe nzira yakafanana nechekuguma kwemasimba ezvinyorwa. Zvichida iyi ihwo huri uporofita. Pano zvinhu zvose zvakaoma zvikuru, zvinokanganisa uye ... zvinorwadza. Izvo hazvina kuitika muupenyu hweTanya: kubudirira kubudirira, kukwidzika kwebasa, nhau dzinoshuva rudo, kutengesa kwevarume, kurasikirwa kwemwana, uye makore akawanda okusurukirwa. "Pasinei nokuti ini ndakaberekerwa uye ndakakurira muDonbas, handina kumbofunga mumatunhu akangwara eMoscow akavharwa. Ndaigara ndichirota nezvekugara uye kushanda muguta rino, ndakakurudzirwa nekudzidza kunozouya kuunivhesiti yakanakisisa munyika - MSU, uye kuti ini ndinogona kuwana mukana wekuva chikamu cheguta guru, nemikana inoshamisa uye tarisiro. Ndaimbofanira kunyorera, ndinetseka, funga nezvezvivako zvisinganzwisisiki zvishoma. Chinhu choga chakandivhiringidza ndechokuti simba reChikraine rakasimba. Asi shamwari dzehosteliti kubva kwandiri dzakakurumidza kumurova kunze. Uye iri nyore kwazvo, asi nzira yakanakisisa - inonyengedzwa, yakanamatirwa. Kunyatsotarirwa gore iyo hurukuro yakadzika yakabuda mune imwe nzvimbo isingazivikanwi. Kana iri nyaya dzemhuri, ini, zvechokwadi, vakange vane zvakakwana. Kufanana nevakawanda, kwakanga kusina dzimba dzakanaka, marangi akanaka, kwete mari yakakwana yekudya. Saka mushure mezvose pane yard yard - 1991. Zvikwereti zvakakura muvadzidzi zvakanga zvisingawanzoitiki. Ndinorangarira kuti ini neshamwari dzangu takagara sei muhosteri kwemazuva mashomanana takagara pati ne mkatecrumbs. Zvakanaka. Ndizvo chete, pandakatanga kutora, uye zvishoma nezvishoma kana zvishoma zvisingadyi kudya, saka vhiki shomanana dzakabatwa ne stomachache uye marudzi ose ekusawirirana-saka muviri wakarumurwa kubva pakudya kwevanhu. Ndakanga ndisinganzwisisiki neropafadzo - ini ndakabva ndaenda kune imwe yenyanzvi dzinofadza zvikuru munyika - nhau. Uye pahofisi yezvematongerwo enyika journalism uye kuparidzira, panguva iyoyo - maitiro anonyanyisa. Asi ndakasarudza kudzidziswa uku kwete nemukana: amai vangu vakapedza hupenyu hwavo hwose vachiita zvemashoko ezvehupfumi, vakava vamiririri vekutanga vezvinyorwa munyika, vakatsigira pachena avo vanoita minda mumutsara, vaifungidzirwa pachena semashoko ekunyora kwemasangano avo, vakashanda kune dzimwe nhengo dzemashoko, kusanganisira chiSwidi. Ndakatevera mumakumbo ake. Ichokwadi, kushambadzira munyika yacho kwaingova kutanga. Zvaiita sekuti munguva yemberi zvaizova zvivimbiso, mari inoshanda. Mukuwedzera, ndaiva nerombo kaviri - ndakanga ndiri mumagumo ekupedzisira evanhu veSoviet Union, vakapinda pasina. Sekunge gore rakatevera, mushure mokubvumirwa, vagari veUkraine vakaita sevatorwa uye chete kwebazi raibhadhara. Ichokwadi, mhuri yedu yakanga isina mari yakadaro. Saizvozvowo, muMoscow ndingadai ndisina kumbobvira ndawana, uye sokunge kuti upenyu hwangu hweramangwana hwakaumbwa, hahuzivikanwi. "
Zuva rokuputsa tsika dzevanhu
"Ndakatanga kushanda mugore rechipiri. Pakutanga, pamwe neshamwari, ivo vakanga vaturika muDhipatimendi rokudhinda reimwe yekambani. Asi nokukurumidza akaziva kuti kutengeserana - hazvisi zvangu. Uye zvakare kuguma kwechiitiko chacho kwakapindira. Imwe yemitambo yakakurumbira yemimhanzi yakarwara, pakanga pasina munhu aifanira kuenda kumhepo. Vakandisimudza. Saka ini ndakava mutungamiri wenhau mimhanzi paBIZ TV, ndokubva tasvika kuMTV. Uye akaenda-akaenda. Nenzira chaiyo, akazova wokutanga muRussia. Isu pamwe nevarume takanga tiri wekutanga kuunza hutano hwevanhu huri kuratidzwa. Izvo zvisati zvaitika, chete vatauri - "kutaura misoro" - vakanga vari mufaira. Mune mamwe mazwi, takatanga kuva muterevhizi weTV, uyo asina kuparidzira, - akataura nevateereri mumutauro umwe, chete mumhepo. Takazvibvumira zvachose zvinhu zvose: kubata, kuseka, kusuruvara uye kunyange kuchema. Yaiva yakasimba, inofadza, kuti sezvo basa rakanga risinganzwisisiki - rutsigiro rinoramba richienderera mberi. Uye apo nokuda kwekunakidza kwakadaro ivo vakatangawo kubhadhara, nekunaka kwakanga kusina muganhu! Pakutanga taionekwa sevechidiki vechidiki, imwe yemitambo, iyo yakatumirwa nemashoko ekuparadzanisa chete: "Mufaira iwe unobvumira zvinhu zvose. Chinhu chikuru - usapike uye usaratidze mbongoro isina chinhu. " Kune rumwe rutivi, izvi ndezvekuwedzera, pane imwe - kusasva. Isu, zvirokwazvo, takazviratidza isu, asi takaita zvikanganiso zvakawanda. Pamhepo, vanhu vaigara vachitaura vanhu vasina kukwana, uye kutuka kwakapera, uye nzvimbo yakawira yakawira mumugariro, uye makamera akanganwa kubvisa, uye isu hatina kuziva nezvazvo. Saka vakaenderera mberi vachirohwa netyava pamusoro pekare "pamusoro pake, pamusoro pemusikana". Asi chaizvoizvo zvose mararamiro ehupenyu huri kupararira. Uye kana iwe uri nyanzvi, kana rurimi rwako rwakanyatsomiswa uye iwe hausakwiri muhomwe yemashoko, zvino zvakanaka. Zvakakosha - mumamiriro ezvinhu akaipisisa kuti usanyadziswa, kwete kuti iwe urege kurasikirwa, kwete kuti unetseke. Zvadaro kunyara kupi zvako kunogona kuvharwa iwe pachako. Takanyatsoratidzira maonero edu nezvezvematongerwo enyika, kunyange zvazvo vakanga vasina kutenda kwezvematongerwo enyika. Muna 1992 ndakabvoora mhino dzangu, muna 1993 ndakaita yekutanga tattoo. Unogona kufungidzira kuti yakaita sei? Sekuputsa kwetsika dzose, kutsika-tsika kwetsika, hurumende! Izvo dhiyabhorosi uye dhiabhorosi ini handina kuonekwa mumugariro - uye mhanza, uye nerino resimbi, uye mupepe yehondo. Handina kumbofarira mafungiro evanhu uye kuravira kwevanhu vose. "
Zuva rekurasikirwa kunorwadza
Nguva yokutanga ndakaroorana ndichiri kudzidza (murume wekutanga waTatyana ndiye gitare weboka re IFK Maxim Galstyan). Tose takagara kwemakore masere. Yaiva ukama hwakareba, hwakakomba, hwakaguma mukuparadzaniswa kwakakwana kune umwe neumwe. Manzwiro apera, hukama hwakapera. Kunyangwe chaive chiitiko chakanaka. Kana zvisina kudaro, nhasi ndaizove ndakasiyana-nevekusava neupenzi, nguva dzose ndichikurumidza kuenda kune imwe nzvimbo, ndichida kutarisa kusvibiswa, uye hapana chimwe chinhu, kugara ndichivaka varume, nekutya chimwe chinhu chisingagoni kuitwa, nechishuvo chekunge chiri chokutanga kutanga, uye Mwari achirambidza, yechipiri. Mune shoko, kukakavara kusingadikanwi kwakatonga kune ani zvake. Akaenda nezvinetso zvisingakoshi, achikwevera pane zviduku, kuparadza nguva kwete pavanhu ivavo. " Makore masere akapfuura muhupenyu hweTutta, dambudziko rakaitika. Vakadzi vachanzwisisa iyi hero. Pavhiki 32 yekusununguka, Tatiana aifanira kuburikidza nekuberekwa kwepanyama nemaitiro chaiwo, kuedza, kusingafungidziki kunorwadza. Kune rumwe rutivi, akabereka semukadzi chero upi zvake akazvimiririra mubasa, pane imwe - akaziva kuti pakanga pasina mwana. Iko panguva iyoyo vanachiremba vakati dambudziko racho rinogona kuonekwa kare kare, vhiki yegumi nemakore, asi chokwadi chezvinhu izvo murwere akaudzwa chete pamakore 32. Kubva ipapo, mai vacho vaiziva kuti guva racho raiva rei mwana. Mushure mekunge kune nguva yakareba yekuora mwoyo. Ndakanga ndisingadi kurarama, kunyange zvazvo ndakanga ndisingafungi kuzviuraya. Zvino pakanga pasina chinhu zvachose: hapana pfungwa, hapana manzwiro, hapana mafungiro, kwete zvido. Tanya akafa zvinorwadza - zvose mutsika uye mumuviri. Kwenguva refu ndakanga ndiri muchipatara, amai vangu vaigara neni. Izvo zvinotonhora zvakachengetwa makumi mana, zvinoramba zvichiita madhikira, mishonga ... Anotsanangura kuti: "Muviri wose wakagumburwa." Vanachiremba vakanaka kwazvo, amai nechitendero vakabatsira kupona. Vakawanda vanodavira kuti njodzi yacho yakaitika nekuda kwekufungidzira, kusava nehanya nemunhu iwe nevana vako. Chokutanga chezvose - kuratidzira kurarame kwemakumbo akapoteredza, mifananidzo yekusingaperi yakasimbiswa kusvikira mwedzi wechisere, toni yakakwirira uye jeans ine bhanhire rakadzika, kuratidza mwana wemangwana sekuti kuratidzira. Tanya zvakasiyana zvinopesana. "Kuberekwa kwaive mufaro mukuru, wandaifunga kugoverana nenyika yose, ndaida kuratidza munhu wose kuti zvakanaka sei kutarisira mwana. Uye mukadzi ari pachigaro haasisina mafuta, kwete anotyisa, kwete kurwara. Akanaka. Ndakanzwa ndakakura, handina kutambura kubva ku toxicosis, kwaiva nesimba rakawanda uye simba mukati mangu! Panyika haina kuenda-yakabhururuka, yakabvongodza, pose pose ichirembera kunze. Uye ndakanga ndisingatyi maziso akaipa, meso akaipa. Vakawanda vemitambo vakadururwa pamapfudzi emaglossies mumamiriro ezvinhu anofadza: Demi Moore, Pamela Anderson. Uye hapana. Zvichida mune imwe. Zvishoma, ini nomurume wangu takanga tisingagoni kupa mwana izvo zvaanofanirwa. Pano mwana wacho akasarudzawo kuisa pachena. Munhu wose asingabvumi Mwari kupinda mumamiriro ezvinhu akafanana neangu-kushushikana kukuru uye nhamo, ndinogona kuratidza nzira yakanakisisa yekubuda nayo: nesimba rako rose, hite muchanza chako pamusoro (kana kuti uri mbongoro) uye taura zvakanyarara: "Hongu haufaniri kunyara, Inodhura? Unganidza pakarepo uye simuka. " Kana munhu achifamba ari oga, anopema, hapana chinomubata-asi nekuda kweizvi zvakakosha kuonga zvikuru kuna Mwari. Zvechokwadi, zvakaipa kana ukarashikirwa nebasa rako, iwe unotambura kana murume wacho akusiya iwe ... Asi, nditende ini, izvi zvakanyanya kubva pane chakaipisisa. Asi apo chirwere chacho chisingaiti zvachose, uye iwe pachako iwe pachako, pasina rubatsiro, iwe haugoni kumuka, paunoona kuti iwe uri kuve mutoro, uye hapana nzira yokubuda nayo-zvino iwe unotanga kunzwisisa kuti chii-mufaro wechokwadi wekuva. Ndizvo zvauri kurarama. Uye vamwe vose, tendai ini, chokwadi muchagadziriswa, nokuti Mwari anopa munhu zvakakwana sezvaanogona kumira. "
Zuva Rokuzvarwa raRuka
Kubva pane zvakaipa kusvika kune mufaro hausi kure - Tanya achakurumidza kuziva nezveizvi: hukama hutsva nemumwe murume huchadzoka nyore uye mufaro wekukurukuriranazve, uye muna 2005 mwana wake Ruka akaonekwa. Mukadzi wake anofara, akatora nguva yakareba kubva kune vamwe vanhu, asi pamuviri nekuberekwa kwaishamisa nyore. Uye mufaro, zvichida, waizove wakakwana kana murume uyo akagara navo. Asi akabva, uye zuva rekuberekwa kwaTutta, munhukadzi, rufaro rwakarongerwa kwemakore anoverengeka. "Nenguva iyo mwanakomana wangu akaberekwa, ndakanyarara kurega kugumburwa nevanhu.Zvino kusuruvara, uye kunyange zvakadaro, zvevanhu, kare kare kare. Kune mumwe nomumwe wavo ini ndinoonga kare nokuda kwekuti vakanga vari pedyo, uye kuti mumwe nomumwe wavo ane zvakawanda zvakajeka, zvine mutsa, chaiye. Zvakanaka, pakudzidzisa zvidzidzo zvakaoma kunonyanya kuonga. Ndakadana mwanakomana wangu Ruka, nokuti, pakutanga, ndiro zita rebhaibheri, uye rwechipiri, ndiro zita remumwe sekurukuru vake. Panguva ino kubata kwaive nyore. Ndakazvara ini, pasina zvinetso uye nekukurumidza zvikuru. Apo mwanakomana wangu akauyiswa kwandiri kwandiri kokutanga uye akaisa pamimba yake, haana kuchema, haana kuda chero chinhu. Akataura zvinyararire, achinyunyutira chimwe chinhu chake, chaaiziva, akaudzawo zvaaifunga. Nababa vake hationi uye hatikurukuri. Haana kuuya kune Ruka zvakare. Kunyangwe, zvichida, mumamiriro ezvinhu aya, tose tine mhosva. Ndinotenda Mwari kuti murume uyu muhupenyu hwangu akaitika, nokuti pamwe naye takaita mukomana akadaro. "
Mweya Equinox Day
Aine murume wake iye zvino Valery Tanya akasangana pane zvakagadzirwa purogiramu yeTV "Chakavanzika Chobudiriro". Akauya neboka rake rekuimba kubva kuSaratov, asi panzvimbo yeguta guru akakunda mwoyo wemupepeti. Kwenguva refu vakaroorana vakavanza rudo rwakanga rwatanga. Uye kwete nokuti vaitya kutaurirana - vaitya kutya mufaro. Gore rakatevera vakasarudza kuroorwa. Kubva panguva iyoyo, Tanya haana rimwe zuva rakasiya manzwiro emufaro, rugare, rutendo. Pakutanga, Ruka akatora papa mutsva nesimba, ane godo rinonzwisisika revana. Ichokwadi, zvakazoitika kuti Valery anoziva kuwirirana nevana. Iye zvino vari shamwari dzechokwadi. Uye apo amai vangu kusvikira usiku huri kubasa, nokuda kwevarume varo, iye anyerere. "Zvakanaka kuti murume wangu haasi munhu webhizimisi wekuratidza uye haana chokuita neTerevhizheni yangu isina maturo uye upenyu hweredhiyo. Anoshanda semhizha rekugadzira mune imwe kambani yekubudisa. Chokutanga pane zvose, ndiri mudzimai wake namai vake, Ruka, uye ipapo ndiri muteresi weTV uye munhu wevanhu vose. Valera murume chaiye, akasimba, akakodzera, ane mwoyo murefu. Iye nokuda kwedu nemwanakomana wake-chaiye chaiye. Uye ini ndinoramba ndichichinja - kuti ndive nani. Kunyange zvazvo pakupedzisira pakuzorora, zvinoratidzika, hazvizobudiriri. Sezvo imwe talent psychoanalyst inoti: "Kunyatsofara kune chirwere cheAlzheimer, senile dementia. Munhu anokwana haagoni kugutsikana zvakakwana nehupenyu hwake. Panguva imwecheteyo, ane huwandu hwehupi uye huseve kuti aite zvose zvouzivi. " Iri zhizha, Tutta Larsen inotarisirwa kuwedzerwa kumhuri. Mufaro muhupenyu hwake, pasina mubvunzo, ichava yakawanda.