Mazuva ano manzwiro echiplonikoni ave chinhu chinosvibisa, chinonyadzisa, kupupurira kusaputsika kwako, kusurukirwa. Zvakanakisisa - zvenguva pfupi, pane zvakanyanya - zvisingaiti. Kana iwe usingagoni kurara nemumwe munhu pachake, saka hakuna munhu anoda iwe. Chero iwe hausi murwi uye iwe haugoni kuwana zvaunoda. Zvimwe zvinowedzera: kwete chete munhu wakaipa, asiwo benzi, achiona ukama nemunhu chete muzviroto zvinotapira ...
Pazera remakore gumi nemana ndakawira murudo nemutambi wemhanzi. Kuda kweplonioni kwakapedzisira kusvika kusvika gumi nemasere: panguva iyo vamwe vaidzidza navo vakanga vatova nepamuviri uye vakatarisira kuroora, ini ndakanyora nhetembo mubhuku rakagadzirirwa kune "yakanaka prince". Uye kana vezera rangu vanoziva zvepabonde vaiziva pamusoro peizvi, vangadai vakandipa kusakanganiswa kwechando uye vakandipa nechinangwa chekusiyiwa kusina ...
Gare gare, dzakawanda zvemhuri dzavo dzepakutanga dzakaputsika, vashoma vechiLoliths vanoita sarudzo vakashandura kwemakore kusvika kune zvinoshamisa zvemhuri makambani. Asi munyu wenhoroondo haisi mune izvi, asi mukuti ini nguva dzose ndakanyora nhetembo, nhau uye nheyo mukukudzwa kwake, ndakabva kune rondedzero rukuru-rwiyo, rhyming blood-love, kuva munyori ane ruoko rwakagadzirwa zvakanaka. Handizvo amai vangu, kana baba vangu, kana vadzidzisi vangu vakakwanisa kuita zvandakaita nokuda kwerudo rwezvinhu zvepachivande platonic rudo-kundidzidzisa kushanda nguva dzose ini pachangu. Ndinotenda nekuda kwekufunga sebenzi uye kusina mwana, ndichimanikidza kuti ndifambise nemaoko zuva rega rega, kufanana newadhickwork, ini ndasainira kunze, ndakaenda kumakoroti, ndikawana basa mumagazini, ndakaenda kuchikoro.
Handifungi kuti makore mangani ndakapika kwandiri kuti, mushure mokukura, handingambofi kuseka rudo urwu rusina maturo, asi ndakachengeta shoko rangu. Nokuti ndinoziva nechokwadi: kunyora kwangu "ini" kwakaberekwa kubva kwairi. Nenzira imwecheteyo ne "Ini" yemudetembi Petrarch, uyo ane rudo rusingadikanwi rwevakaroorwa Laura akaberekera nhete, akaendeswa kune rimwe rinotevera mabhuku ose eEtestamende. Misiyano chete ndeyokuti, kusiyana neni, Petrarch akanga asingazivi nezvekuisa pasi -kushandurwa kwesimba repabonde muchigadzirwa chekusika kana chimwe chinhu, "zvakakosha mune zvevanhu." Kune avo vasinganzwisisi zvisikwa zvakasikwa, ini ndichawedzera mamwe mazano mamwe. Paakawana mubazi reitambo ndakatsamwiswa nechokwadi chokuti munhu wangu ane firimu akadzidzawo ikoko. Gare gare, mushure mekubvunzurudza, ndakaunza nyaya yacho kupepanhau - saka ndakawana nzvimbo yekusingaperi. Kunyangwe gare gare, ndakanyora pamusoro pehutano hwangu hwemhandara, kubva pane iyo firimu yakafuridzirwa, iyo yakatanga kuenzaniswa nemabasa angu ... Heino nhepfenyuro shoma yekushandura rudo rusina kubudirira mukuita basa rinobudirira. Uye kana zvakadaro, unogona here kudana rudo kusina kubudirira?
Apo rudo rwekunzwa (nekuda kwekushayikwa kwekudzokorora mune zvimwe zvepachivande platonic rudo) hakutora nguva nesimba, iwe kazhinji unopedza zvose zviri zviviri pakuva akakodzera rudo - kuzvizvipira-iwe, kufambira mberi. Ndinoziva musikana uyo, kubva pakuchiva kuswedera pedyo nenyaya yePlato manzwiro, akaziva basa idzva uye akawana nzvimbo dzakakwirira mairi. Uye pane imwe nzira mumugwagwa iye akadzivisa kushushikana kwakatsiviwa nechido chemuviri - kune mumwe murume ... Asi zvose zvaakabudirira zvakaramba zviri pamwe naye.
Kungoita chete kuti anogona kugara achikwereta mari kwaari kana zvichidikanwa, ndeyeye kuti nguva nenguva anopinda mapurogiramu ebhizimisi risina kunaka, ndeyeye iye anotaura "moyo nemwoyo" mukicheni uye anotamba panguva dzezororo dzose (murume wake haadi kuda kutamba). Kubva pairi, anogara achigamuchira uye achidiwa-mukadzi achidya: kukurudzira, kufara, kunzwa kuti iwe unogamuchirwa (zvose izvo zvinokurumidza kana kuti zvishoma zvinorega kupisa varume). Uye, achitonga nechokuti, kuchinja vasikana vane maperembudzi mazhinji, munyoro anoramba akatendeka kune imwe platonic rudo, anogutsikana nechisarudzo ichi - chidziro chemai akanaka ane chiratidzo "chiedza". Pano iwe uye unoda, uye ushamwari, uye bhizinesi, uye kudedera kwemweya, uye hana inonzwisisika, uye zvepabonde kune rumwe rutivi kuti zvibate pasina munhu anopesana. Uye chinhu chinonyanya kuchenjera chinogona kuitwa pedyo nekurangarira kwehukama hwakadaro ndechokurara nemumwe. Munyaya yakanakisisa, zvinhu zvose zvicharamba zviripo, kana zvakanyanya - kukuvadza, kukurudzira "zvichida" zviripo mufananidzo wechitarisiko chakanakisa, kuchashanduka kuva "kunyomba" kwete, kwakasimbiswa nechinhu chakaipa uye chinonyangadza.
Uye pakupedzisira - imwe platinic "plus". Mugore ramakumi matatu rehupenyu hwangu, ndakabva ndaona kuti ndinowira murudo zvakakwana nevarume kuti handigoni kufara nazvo. Pane zvinopesana, muviri wangu, zvinomwe zvinomwe uye mafungiro anofara pakuona zvisikwa zvevanhu izvo zvisingakodzeri kufara pamwe pamwe chete: zvishoma, vhudzi-refu, zvisingabviri, narcissistic, chido (sekufanana nekambodhidhi yangu yekutanga firimu!).
Ndiine yekutanga ndakasarudza kumira musangano, iyo yekupedzisira ini handina kuda. Yakaramba ichigara pamba uye ichiona TV ... Apa ndipo apo rudo rweplanonic kuvhidhiyo vateereri vakaedzwa mumakore mashomanana vakasvika pakununura. Zviri nyore kuwira murudo nemutambi! Kunyange kana ari kutamba chimiro chemukomana mukuru, munyoro, akajeka uye akajeka wausingadi - iyo yose yemabhizimisi emhizha, munyori wezvinyorwa, munyori wekuita, mutungamiriri ari kushanda kuti iwe ude murudo naye. Pakutanga kwaiita semitambo: asi ini ndinogona here kuchinja zvandinoda uye kuisa kune mumwe munhu? Zvakabva zvaitika, ndinogona, kana "mukomana akanaka" achitamba, somuenzaniso, naBrendan Fraser ...
Nenzira , shamwari yangu yepamusoro inotaura kuti murume wangu akafanana naye. Handifungi zvakadaro. Asi iyi shanduro, chokwadi, yakakodzera kudzidza. Icho chinotarisa kuti kana paine gumi nemana ndakanyatsodikanwa murudo neKalyagin, ndingagara ndichida varume vaduku, vakakora here? Uye kana amai vane njere vachida kuisa mumwanasikana wavo kugadzirisa kumhando yakarurama yemurume, anofanirwa here kuisa mafirimu ake naRussell Crow naKevin Costner kubva mudiki?
Chero zvingava, zvakanyanyisa kuti ndiongorore iyi dzidziso kubva pane zvandinowana. Asi kana ndikambova nomwanasikana, ini ndicharamba ndichiwedzera nyaya ino.